More then anything else in all of this world I want to always walk humbly and obediently with the Lord. This is not easy by any means. I’ve got battle scars to prove it…to always remind me of where I’ve been, of what God has walked me through.
Lately the changes I’ve been facing have been weighing me down. I’m getting married, I’m moving and I’m looking for a new job. Three big things that normally, just one of them, is a big deal, but all three at once have made some big impacts on me.
I find myself so excited about getting married to the woman of my dreams and then so anxious that I won’t be the best spiritual leader to her. I find myself excited that I get to move to a new city, to a new home and yet I find myself nervous that I won’t fit in, or that I won’t like it. I find myself leaving a place of vibrant ministry, a place where things are really starting to come together and where peoples hearts are being changed and I get sad, knowing I’m leaving that, and I hope they don’t feel like I’m leaving them.
I’ve spent a lot of time in prayer lately. Especially late at night or in early hours of the morning. Sometimes when I’ve been in pray, when I am listening for God to respond, things can get intense. Now maybe its my “sanctified” imagination, but as heavy as things are on my heart right now about getting married, about moving and finding a new job, the Lord has been so faithful in my life. My time in the Word has been so real lately. It amazes me. God has even given other people scripture to pray through for me and then to find out that it was the same time I was reading that passage as well.
There are these worship leaders in Redding that now travels the world. Brian and Jenn Johnson. They’ve written two amazing songs that have ministered to me lately so much. You can click on their names and go to their myspace music page to listen to them, but here are the words of the song too…
“Where You Go I Go“Where You go I go. What You say I say. And what You pray I pray. And what You pray I pray
Where You go I go. What You say I say God. And what You pray I pray
Cause Jesus only did what He saw You do. And He would only say what He heard You speak. And He would only move when He felt You lead. Following Your heart following Your spirit
So How could I expect to walk without You. When every move that Jesus made was in surrender. I will not begin to live without You. For You alone are worthy and You are always good.
Where You go I go. What You say I say. And what You pray I pray. And what You pray I pray
Where You go I go. What You say I say God. And what You pray I pray
So How could I expect to walk without You. When every move that Jesus made was in surrender. I will not begin to live without You. For You alone are worthy and You are always good. You are always good…
Oh, the beauty of Your name will be seen upon my face, Oh, God. Oh, the glory of Your name will be seen upon our face, Oh, God
Though the world sees and soon forgets. We will not forget who You are and what You’ve done for us. And what You’ve done for us. And Though the world sees and soon forgets. We will not forget what You’ve done for us…
Where You go I go. What You say I say. And what You pray I pray. And what You pray I pray
Where You go I go. What You say I say God. And what You pray I pray
I will follow You yeah, In this desert life, I will follow You. Whatever comes my way. Through every situation, I will follow You. To the unknown, to the unsaved. Give me a heart of no compromise.
“A Little Longer“What can I do for You? What can I bring to You? What kind of song would you like me to sing?‘Cause I’ll dance a dance for You. Pour out my love to You. What can I do for You beautiful king?
‘Cause I… can’t thank You enough. I can’t thank You enough. What can I do for You? What can I bring to You? What kind of song would you like me to sing?
‘Cause I’ll dance a dance for You. Pour out my love to You. What can I do for You beautiful king?
‘Cause I… can’t thank You enough. I can’t thank You enough. All of the words that I find… and I can’t thank You enough. No matter I try… I can’t thank You enough. Then I hear You sing to me…
“you… don’t have to do a thing…just simply be with me and let those things go, ’cause they can wait another minute. Wait… this moment is too sweet. Would you please stay here with Me and love on Me a little longer”
I hear You say…
“You… don’t have to do a thing…just simply be with me and let those things go, ’cause they can wait another minute. Wait… this moment is too sweet. Would you please stay here with Me and love on Me a little longer. I’d love to be with you a little longer ’cause I’m in love with you.
reflections of hope 